STATUS: Complicated

Sunday, July 12, 2009

As I said before we are just friends -me and that guy! Honestly guys, I don't know! The relationship between us two is COMPLICATED, that's what I have to say. See, we go out on dates and we almost do the things that a boyfriend-girlfriend usually do, like kissing, hugging and whatsoever.


But friends? Or is it more than just friends? I don't know! What's up with him? I want to ask him questions about us: Ano ba talaga tayo? Tayo na bang dalawa?, Do you really love me, or is it just for a show? There are tons of questions to ask him but I don't have the courage.

He always talks about his previous ex-es and his pasts with them. And I hate it! "-Hey, wait a minute, I'm not even asking about what's the shit with you and your ex-es. And here you are blabbering everythin' to me, as if I care. Y'know what, you're hurtin' me. I fuckin' hate you!" I fuckin' HATE HIM. Oh God, he's playing with my feelings!

You're not worth my tears, I'm not doing fine. I don't know why I give you the time, you're not worth the pain, you're not worth the emptiness. i don't know why i wish you were mine.

He has my heart and I think it beats only for him. I'm afraid, I might not bring it back or even mend it. I think of positive thoughts but it's no use. Until now, I don't know what's up with us two -it's been almost a year. I don't know what keeps holding me for so long.

And every day that we're goin' on just like this, it's hurting me... Everyday. :'(

Sealed With A Kiss

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Major layout change!

So I just got bored with my old theme and here's a new one. -...sealed with a kiss! I also added some extras, but wait... Don't click on it yet! I'm still working on that. -I'm thinking of sharing my previous blogger themes. I'll be adding some tutorials, and what else... I'll be adding some graphics too, and a lot more. Hopefully, it would be open to the public this July, so you guys bettah keep on checkin'. Notice, I updated my profile.

Anyway, Jenzen and I have been going out this past few days. Date, date, date, and another date again. I just love it when am with him. Oh, paperplanes! What's with the paperplanes? Jenzen made 'em. He wrote his name on it and I wrote my name on it too. Sweet huh?


P.S.: I'm really enjoying my college!

The Date!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Yesterday, after class, me and my friend went to Mister Donuts to have some snack. Our stomach needs love baby! Hehehe!

"1 Message Received" ...written on my phone screen.

I pressed the "Read" button. It's Jenzen!

Oh, so Jenzen is also in town. We met and y'know what? ME and HIM. Yes, ME and HIM... But... But his sister, his cousin, and his cousin's boyfriend where there. What the? I didn't expect such. I didn't know. I felt unease. Y'know like, what if they don't like me? Argh! But I dind't mind them... Everytime he kiss me and hugs me gives me thousands of butterflies in my stomach.

...ME and Him? We actually, DATED!

“Millions and millions of years would still not give me half enough time to describe that tiny instant of all eternity when you put your arms around me and I put my arms around you.” -Jacques Prévert