STATUS: Complicated
Sunday, July 12, 2009
As I said before we are just friends -me and that guy! Honestly guys, I don't know! The relationship between us two is COMPLICATED, that's what I have to say. See, we go out on dates and we almost do the things that a boyfriend-girlfriend usually do, like kissing, hugging and whatsoever.

But friends? Or is it more than just friends? I don't know! What's up with him? I want to ask him questions about us: Ano ba talaga tayo? Tayo na bang dalawa?, Do you really love me, or is it just for a show? There are tons of questions to ask him but I don't have the courage.
He always talks about his previous ex-es and his pasts with them. And I hate it! "-Hey, wait a minute, I'm not even asking about what's the shit with you and your ex-es. And here you are blabbering everythin' to me, as if I care. Y'know what, you're hurtin' me. I fuckin' hate you!" I fuckin' HATE HIM. Oh God, he's playing with my feelings!
You're not worth my tears, I'm not doing fine. I don't know why I give you the time, you're not worth the pain, you're not worth the emptiness. i don't know why i wish you were mine.
He has my heart and I think it beats only for him. I'm afraid, I might not bring it back or even mend it. I think of positive thoughts but it's no use. Until now, I don't know what's up with us two -it's been almost a year. I don't know what keeps holding me for so long.
And every day that we're goin' on just like this, it's hurting me... Everyday. :'(
--xoxo,


Charchar,
pseudonyms: El Barumbada, Bheibyboo. 17. Breathing since 25th of July, 1992. Swagger as me. Flirt. Bitch. Walkin' in the rain.

